JESSICA GUESS: I\u2019m writing less. I don\u2019t have any other answer. It\u2019s crazy because I have the motivation to write as well as the ideas, but the will isn\u2019t there. Everything that\u2019s going on plus work, plus taking care of my mom has pretty much taken all the energy I have. Right now, I\u2019m reading more and watching more horror movies to distract myself.<\/p>\n
L. MARIE WOOD: I just finished writing my second novel of the year last night and, while waiting for the manuscript to print because I am old school and intend to mark it up with my red pen, I took stock of my output in 2020\u2026 and\u2026 I\u2019ve written A LOT.\u00a0 Just under 300k words and they were a mix of novels, short stories, essays, presentations, screenplays, novellas, and even a poem stuck in there for good measure.\u00a0 I wrote because I had the ideas.\u00a0 I wrote in the middle of the night because that was when I had time \u2013- that is usually<\/em> when I have time, so nothing really changed there.\u00a0 I did not write about the pandemic or its effect on me or the world around me.\u00a0 That is not what I normally write about -\u2013 it is, indeed, too realistic to provide the escapism I strive to provide and look for in my own reading selections.\u00a0 So, even thought we suffered considerable strain this year, I did not let that worm its way into my work.\u00a0 The writing itself \u2013 the normalcy of it \u2013 was cathartic.<\/p>\n ANGELA SLATTER: I found in the first three weeks of lockdown in Australia, I was kind of lost. There was no inspiration to write, everything felt like we were living in a horror novel \u2013 which is very different from just imagining it for the purposes of writing! Like pretty much everyone, I wasn\u2019t sleeping well, lots of nightmares, the constant stress sitting on your chest when you were awake, and of course watching a lot of income dry up as face-to-face teaching and appearances were off the table. But gradually I just kept pushing and the words started to return, so it became a kind of therapy \u2013 the only thing I could do, I guess! So, in the end I\u2019ve been pretty productive this year. I\u2019ve probably written more out and out horror this year, with less shall we say metaphorical padding to take the edge off? \u201cThe Wrong Girl\u201d (Nightmare, 23 Dec 2020) is one of those stories with a lot of blood and flesh in the teeth.<\/p>\n K.P. KULSKI: 2020 was one hell of a century. I have hopes for 2021 but with this last year under our belts, I\u2019ve learned to be extremely anxious about having hope. My writing time has been dented by what a lot of parents are experiencing, virtual school and trying to balance it all. I also moved in 2020, so that was added craziness.<\/p>\n With that said, I spent a lot of time thinking about racism in particular, which led to thinking more about my own hapa experience and of how much my immigrant mother went through. I poured that pondering and emotional energy into a novella. I\u2019m finding the theme popping up more in my stories, along with a subsequent sense of isolation.<\/p>\n LAUREL HIGHTOWER: My writing has ebbed and flowed a bit this year \u2013- part of it is the mental grind of worry about the pandemic and political situation, the murders of George Floyd and Breonna Taylor. It\u2019s impossible to be unaffected by that, and on top of it, my toddler son has been home from daycare since March. My husband and I are both working full time from home, so my days are long with no breaks until late. I\u2019d been writing only during his naps on weekends, but then his sleeping got erratic and I panicked. I really felt like I\u2019d have to put writing on hold, but then I listened to writers like Hailey Piper, Red Lagoe and Jonathan Janz, who (without the slightest judgment on anyone else) are committed to making it work into their schedules. I found time in the mornings, and in the evenings, and since I\u2019ve been writing everyday now, I feel much more in the flow of it.<\/p>\n Whether it\u2019s fully related to the upheaval of the year or not, I do think my work has become a lot more personal, and observant of the frustrations of my situation. I love being a woman, and I love being a mom, but there are unbelievable rifts between what\u2019s expected of women versus men. I\u2019m not saying that in a man bashing spirit, or writing that way either, but out of a desire to examine my own feelings, express them in a horror palette, and maybe find ways to improve my situation.<\/p>\n HAILEY PIPER: I probably wrote about the same amount of work, but the shape certainly changed. I spent 2019 largely writing short fiction. In 2020 though, I wrote only a few short stories and instead channeled the time and energy into three books. The energy to it changed, too, maybe from lack of public socialization. My approach has become wild and unapologetic. The world is a chaotic place, so why hold back our own feminine chaos?<\/p>\n Writing is a tough business to say the least. Do you have any particular self-care rituals or ways that have helped you cope with being part of an often difficult industry?<\/strong><\/p>\n JESSICA GUESS: I try not to take things personally. I learned that early on with doing workshops. You can\u2019t take anything anyone says about your work personally. You have to remember that readers are coming to your work with their own perceptions and worldviews and sometimes they\u2019ll put things on your work that you didn\u2019t intend. Or they\u2019ll have expectations that you weren\u2019t trying to reach. I\u2019ll never forget one workshop experience where the instructor accused me of having a racist stereotype of Asians in my short story when the character in question was actually a Black Trinidadian. She accused me of other stuff too that had nothing to do with my story. I was hurt for a while, but I kinda knew that she was putting her own stuff on my work. It wasn\u2019t me. She didn\u2019t even read the story carefully to know the ethnicity of the character she was mad about and she\u2019s a famous writer and creative writing instructor! If she can do that, what do you expect of the average reader?<\/p>\n GEMMA AMOR: Lots. Having strict rules about what I am comfortable engaging with on social media has been the most significant act of self-care I could have initiated for myself and I continue to hold to my rules every day. I have extremely firm boundaries surrounding who I want to communicate and interact with, and that is okay– often throughout my life I have felt apologetic for not enjoying something, or not getting along with certain people. But it\u2019s ridiculous to assume you are going to get everyone to like you or be everyone\u2019s cup of tea– the world just doesn\u2019t work that way. So I stick to my boundaries and it makes me a lot less anxious about myself and my place in the world as a result.<\/p>\n Other than that, I walk, a lot, to take care of both my brain and my body, I will often figure out a tricky plot point that way, or else, in a scalding hot bath. I love baths. I think I might be part-mermaid or eel (or manatee).<\/p>\n I also have about three or four dedicated beta readers\/editorial type folk who often help carry me through the difficult part of writing a novel or anything of great length– particularly that stodgy middle bit of a novel that everyone hates– I find that reaching out to them for reassurance and feedback is an incredibly important part of my creative process, and I value them enormously.<\/p>\n It sounds a little hippy as well, but one of the best ways I find to be kind to myself in this often emotionally charged and rather cutthroat industry is to enjoy the work of my peers and help promote them where possible. I literally jump for joy when I see a fellow writer land an exciting contract or tv show or whatever– it gives me hope and a real sense of community, which I personally find really inspiring and fuels me on. I think sometimes people can find that \u2018Pollyanna\u2019 attitude disingenuous or frustrating, but one thing I have learned is that the feeling of being isolated (a huge issue for me at the moment what with multiple lockdowns in the UK thanks to corona) really does exacerbate imposter syndrome and your creativity by a significant amount– only the other day I was talking about always feeling on the fringes of things, and never quite belonging to any one place. This is a nasty and insidious ideology that can nip a burgeoning writing career at the bud, and one way I get around these feelings is to immerse myself in other people in my genre. I mean, I just prefer to try where possible to think outside my own personage– having said that, writers by nature spend a lot of time thinking about themselves and talking about themselves because they are quite literally selling themselves to their readers, and as I get older I am increasingly aware of this. I\u2019m not a huge fan of me, me, me, so I try and interact with others as much as possible.<\/p>\n Having said that, the last year has been an absolute slog. I have found reading anything longer than a few hundred words almost impossible, so I feel I\u2019ve fallen behind in purchasing and reading the works of my peers– but I hope to get back on the case soon– the apocalypse can\u2019t last forever, right?<\/p>\n ANGELA SLATTER: I try really hard to recognise when I\u2019m grinding my gears: if I haven\u2019t had a proper rest or just refilled the creative well by reading, going to the movies, binge-watching tv series, taking walks, talking to the dogs, etc. Just generally making a point of stopping until I catch up with myself and feel more focused and inspired.<\/p>\n K.P. KULSKI: Alone time is important to me and can be a challenge to obtain, but I have learned that my introvert soul doesn\u2019t do well without a solitary well refill. I have to take time to myself just to be alone with my thoughts. I take as many opportunities to do this as I can. Reading is always a good source of self-care, either dark fiction or history is my jam.<\/p>\n Another thing that always gives me a sense of peace is reading to my kids. We\u2019ve enjoyed a lot of stories together especially mythology from around the world.<\/p>\n DONYAE COLES: I do a lot of art but I don’t think that’s self care really because that’s just. . . the other thing I do with my time. I read a lot. I knit and crochet. I am a creative or I am a cozy creature doing soft things wrapped in a blanket, there is no in between.<\/p>\n LAUREL HIGHTOWER: Stepping away has been the biggest, and most effective way I\u2019ve cared for myself this year. Things happen in the world, in our community that need addressing, and I\u2019m all for that. I don\u2019t believe in putting on a good face and keeping things surface level so that resentments and straight up wrongs fester. But everyone has their threshold. I reached a point of anxiety this summer that stopped me from sleeping for about a month. That\u2019s simply not feasible \u2013 it\u2019s miserable, I have no childcare, and there\u2019s no way to take a day off and rest. I realized it\u2019s not healthy for me to be connected all the time, and that I need to protect myself from certain situations. In the same vein, I stopped reading reviews of my work, because it got HAILEY PIPER: Having good friends who understand has been truly helpful. We keep check on each other, hear each other out, offer advice and solace. I’m tremendously lucky to have made friends with such wonderful people in the community. Reading also helps. I crave reading time desperately; it helps shut away everything else. A good reading session is especially cleansing.<\/p>\n And that’s it for Part Three of our roundtable! 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<\/a>GEMMA AMOR: Gosh, my writing life changed in every single way imaginable. I am a mother, and schools have been closed, so my day job quickly became my second job that was often carried out in the small hours of each morning and that grew so draining my writing certainly suffered as a result. I likened it to trying to wade through cold porridge- everything felt stodgy and bland and just lacking in any spark or vitality. That being said, I did manage to push through and meet most of my obligations, but it was the toughest work year of my career and the toughest year of my life on a personal level, so yes– it came out in my work, which I think was a lot bleaker in tone now I come to think about it. I plan on addressing that with future works, and I want to get back to what I think made my writing pop before this giant coronavirus shitshow came along– having fun with the words again. Because if it isn’t fun, what\u2019s the point? Perhaps easier said than done right now, but it\u2019s there as a goal– have fun writing again.<\/p>\n<\/a>DONYAE COLES: I wrote a lot less in the beginning of everything but I’ve been writing a lot more since September. The themes in my writing haven’t really changed because the things my writing deals with (race, gender, poverty) haven’t really changed.<\/p>\n<\/a>L. MARIE WOOD: Interesting question!\u00a0 I think that, at the beginning of my career, I would have answered quite differently than I will now.\u00a0 I can remember going out to dinner to get my mind off of a rejection letter or getting my nails done to try and drive away my frustration over my perceived lack of progress.\u00a0 Not so anymore.\u00a0 Rejections will come \u2013 they are part of the cycle, and while I don\u2019t like them any more now than I did before, I recognize their role in the general scheme of things.\u00a0 I still get irritated by them but if I had intended to write when one came in, I don\u2019t throw in the towel for the day and come back later.\u00a0 Writing time is precious these days, so write, I will\u2026 after a few sips of wine and a few deep breaths.<\/p>\n<\/a>to the point where it was hurting my feelings. I don\u2019t believe in censorship of reviews \u2013 people should feel comfortable voicing their opinions about what they read, and even if my best friend hates my work and gives it one star, we\u2019re still cool. But when it\u2019s taking up head space, it\u2019s time to stop. Oh, also massage, when possible. I am horrible at relaxing, so making myself leave the house and lay still for an hour is immensely helpful.<\/p>\n